See how depress I am?
I'm living in a world where I think everyone is better than me in any other way, way better. Results, looks, height, dressing, money, food, figure.... Wow indeed I'm very jealous. I just don't understand how come my mind wants to be not-me but others.
My mind uses to think I'm very unique &very different from others. It trusts me a lot and follows my heart. Soon it realise I was too bad &stupid so it give up, trying to make me into another person which it thinks was the me last time. Full blame on my mind? The different kinda me. In a dilemma now. Change or remain the same.
The more I think, the more I'm stepping into the depression zone. Luckily there's always a warning telling me not to enter this dangerous entrance & that's exactly what I need now.
This chunk of words is not meant to be shared, but still I wish that you all can understand me better. I'm not the always cheerful girl you see when I'm out. It sux2Bme! Logic thinking tells me that thinking too much hurts everyone around you. In contrast, society says that if a person don't think ahead, one cannot improve and succeed!
How nice.......
In the meantime, I want my relationship to last, I know it will. I guess my choice will have to change.
Determination.
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